How Much Longer?
Today, I am not feeling well. I think that it is a mess of emotions, the fact that I am physically tired, and need to get some rest. I just got back from a Friday/Saturday trip with some friends to Idaho Springs, CO where we camped and went off-roading which is exhausting; being dirty, sunburned and thrown too and fro in a jeep, and on it goes.
Since the family was home today, we decided to spend it in the car, traveling around down, eating lunch and the like. Well, I don’t think my lunch is agreeing with me, which does not make me any less emotional. Having a sick stomach just adds to the emotions already felt. So, let me explain what I am felling today:
Sick. Tired. Sick and Tired. Tired of work. Tired of school. Tired of stupid people. I don’t want to clean my room (and it needs cleaning). Tired of waiting, but trying to keep on keepin’ on. I want a relationship with someone special. I want to begin my own life. I want a different job room for advancement and potential. I want to move out. I want to be out of debt. I want to get closer to God. I want to sleep. I want to see a good movie. I want all of my friends to be on Facebook and not on Myspace. I want an iPhone but can’t justify spending the money when my phone works great.
Why do we feel like this some days? Why is it that all these feelings just come gushing out all at once when you least expect it?
I am trying to be patient and really do what God wants from me. I am trying to wait for the right person because I know that He is faithful and will supply my perfect match. But how much longer to I have to wait? I want to get a job that pays well, that will use my degree and will be a career and not a job. But how much longer before that happens?
Tomorrow I will not fell like this. I don’t like to wallow in this. It is distracting and stupid to do because you waste a lot of time and it does not help at all. Life is good. I will celebrate with everything that I have because God has supplied my every need and for that I should, and am grateful.
I will keep on pressin’ on, and try again, again!
